Slow and Steady

I am slowly starting to get myself out of this rut I have been in. Thanks for all the encouraging words:) I have started The Love Dare this week and so far so good. I was supposed to start it a few weeks ago with a few other gals (sorry Miss and Kristie, I have been a slacker!) but I just picked it up from the store. Better late than never I guess.

I have still been running, a little. I should be running more but I feel like I have been really busy with work and family stuff. Hopefully I will get out tonight when Ken gets home. I am doing another 5K on June 12th or 13th, I can't remember. This one is right in Cambridge so hopefully I will have a couple of cute boys waiting for me at the finish line:)

The past 2 weeks have been filled with lots of yard work around here. I have put in a few new gardens and have a few more to go. I am really starting to enjoy gardening and I am hoping that mixed with my running will be great stress relievers!

My baby turned 6 last week. I have been in total denial about it. I can't believe it has been 6 years already!!! Time goes by WAY too fast. He had a fun party at the pool with family and friends. He is getting so big so fast.

Here's to hoping the rest of this week involves sunshine!!!!

Oh and big props to my faithful running buddy Sara!! She just finished her first marathon on Sunday!! She isn't running with me this week because she needs to rest, but she will be back at in no time I'm sure:)

Ruts

I am in a rut. A really big one actually. You know the kind where the only person to blame is yourself. The kind of rut where you were the big dork that decided to put the little car your in, in reverse and try to drive across the big wet stinky muddy swamp. Yup, that kind of rut. YUCK!

How does a person put it in drive and make it out of that mess? Cause I need some serious 4x4 off road super charged with a hemi drive!

I can't say for sure when it all started (read: the minute I decided I was a better pilot than God), I can say that it has been going on for a little while (read: TOO long). I think I had something to do with it (read: I had EVERYTHING to do with it). Things don't seem to be looking up (read: I haven't been looking UP, to HIM). I really think I am not having much fun (read: this really sucks royally). I wish I knew what to do (read: HE knows that I know what to do). I am kinda being a little stubborn about getting out of this rut (read: I am being a royal pain in the rear and completely ignoring the obvious).

You know when you know what you have to do, but you just can't seem to do it? Well I do ALL too well.

God is the only thing that can get me out of this rut, but honestly I am kinda hurt and frustrated by God lately. That kinda puts a damper on me going to him for help, even though that is EXACTLY what I should do.

I am mad at church and even more mad that my husband and I can't agree on a church. I am sad that the church that we loved fell apart and even more sad that we don't even have relationships with some of those people anymore. I am devastated that our circle of friends and slowly grown smaller and even more devastated that my best friend ever is moving across the county to Washington DC for at least 3 years if not 1o. I am heart broken that my husband and I can't seem to be unified on anything lately and even more heart broken that neither of us can seem to see or even feel the other persons pain although we are supposed to be One. And I am furious at myself that I decided I didn't need God "that bad" these past months and even more furious that I can't just bring myself to him in the heaping tearful mess that I am because I feel like big fat loser and waste of His time. And to top it all off, I have been running and running for 2.5 months and haven't lost a single pound which totally adds to my ridiculous self image and worthlessness.

Dumb.

I had to vent. Mostly b.c. I need prayer. b.c. I am tired of pretending life is grand and oh so happy and perfect. Sometimes life sucks. And I know it could suck more. But life right now stinks. And I am tired of it..............

I Did It!!!!!

Today was the Moms Day 5K in Minneapolis. I ran the WHOLE 3.2 miles in the wind and cold. And the first half was up hill!! I finished in about 35 minutes which is about an 11:15 min/mile. Kinda slow, but I am just so pleased I didn't stop to walk:)

3 Months ago I couldn't even run for 3 minutes!!

Next up????? Maybe a 10K in September:)

I couldn't have done it without my friend Sara who has been my faithful running buddy:) She did awesome at keeping me going!

Back from Vacation!

Bet you didn't even know I was on vacation, since I blog so much:) Anyways, we are home, we are tired, and we are missing the sun and the fun. We went to Arizona to visit my grandparents! It was a ton of fun, and the kids had a great time. I don't know if my grandparents had that much fun with their house being overtaken with a noisey family of 5, but what the hey, family is worth it right??!!

I have to work all weekend so I most likely wont have time to get pics up here, but hopefully in a few days.

I actually took more video than pics for some reason:)

I will try to put something together to share with everyone. Hope you all have a great weekend!